hmm i love the fall so so much. katie and i went for a nice walk, got coffee, went to the dog park. it was such a nice day, and it was nice to leave the house during sun hours.
so a lots changed, lots hasn't. moving absolutely suucked. the movers we hired to move out of mission hill never showed, and no one was around to help us because we didn't think we'd need it. katie and i moved just about everything out ourselves, thankfully my brother came mid way and helped us. i owe him my life. the next day wasn't so bad because our parents were there to help. our new apartment is amazing. the location is perfect, so close to the beach, and it is just so cute and nice and the perfect change. its amazing how many people we know live within walking distance, and we have been meeting so many new friends that live around.
in the meantime, nate and i started dating again for the first time since highschool which wasn't even real at the time i don't think. he hated me after anyway because i completely stopped talking to him when i met steve. whoopsy...
soo its been a month and obviously i am pretty over it. we started going out at the wedding which like helllloo everyone is in love at weddings, they are hypnotizing! i thought it would be a good idea, so we both decided to "try it out" next thing i know we are in a fucking relationship on facebook. ughhh...yah. he lives almost two hours away which is obstacle numero uno. he came down here for a night and we went out with a few of my friends and it sucked. it was so stressful for me and it was just awkward. two weeks ago we went to the bar down the street with katie and he was just so socially awkward, i couldn't even believe it. so that was that. its just hard because i like him and all, but I'm not sure its enough to go through all this effort for. so we shall see how this all pans out.
living with the dog has been hard too. somedays its not bad and sometimes i just want her out. that's life though i guess.
i haven't talked to steve in almost two months. I'm glad i haven't talked to him, and he really doesn't cross my mind much, but we he does it makes me sad that i don't know what hes up to. but we go through things like this often so i suppose one day we will talk again, if i decide i ever want to.
its hard ya know, keeping in touch with people. so many of my friends get worried if i don't talk with them for a period of time, even though in the back of their minds they know that's really how i am. i don't make much effort usually and its not for any reason, just who i am...and when i am afraid that things are drifting then i do make the effort. and so far, that's been working for me. its how i work. some people call others all the time, or need to talk to everyone everyday. but what does hurt is when the effort is there and it isn't reciprocated. that's when it hurts. and that's also when i do shy away. i can only try so long before I've been pushed away.
katie's at work tonight so that means i have nothing to do but watch tv or clean. :( guess which I'm about to do..
