that's not my name

this post is going to be so blah blah blah. so stop reading now if you re looking for entertainment. just wanted to list a few things

• my weekend was phenomenal
• driving forever doesn't always feel like forever
• i cant stand the rare times i have to be in meetings at work. its always with all women and i always get distracted and pick out the people who need to get their hair done and wondering what I'm going to have for dinner.
• love actually IS a good movie thank you very much.
• music makes almost anything better
• new york is fun, but i love Boston
• tootsie pops are a battle between your teeth and your tongue
• conversation is everything, not matter which form it comes in
• my cousin told me today that when we were younger i told her that someday someone would ask her to draw a star and if she couldn't, they would kill. so harsh huh?
• i always try to drink more water, than hate myself when I'm peeing every 8 minutes
• dating is fun
• my room is so messy it drives me crazy, but not crazy enough to put my computer down and clean it
• it's Monday and i already can't wait for the weekend, along with most of the world i suppose
• i probably say "take a deep breath" more than any other phrase on a daily bases.
• i don't take enough deep breaths myself.
• if it weren't for a few people in this world, i wouldn't believe in love. and still only those few don't have me completely convinced.
• there are so many things that i would like to say to you but i don't know how.
• Sammy gets cuter every time i see him. except when hes being annoying
• i never thought I'd miss the food i ate in china
• people watching is the ultimate past time. i love thinking about what other peoples lives are like.
• i play it off like i don't, but i love salty skin so much i used to lick my arms after swimming in the ocean when i was younger, sometimes I'll still sneak it
• there is no such thing as small change
• with that, umass is as close to death as i hope i will ever come
• being weird is fun, some people should try it more
• i feel like this list is actually how my brain works; just strings of random thoughts all day.
• i know you hate my ADD, but i know you really don't.
• i would never want to go to cheers because i would go nuts if i went somewhere and everyone knew my name. come onnn.
• i sometimes picture my life as a movie. not dramatic like movies but just with montages and fast forwards and a soundtrack
• i haven't read a book since i started my job.
• i just want to know you.
• out of sight does mean out of mind. usually.
• i could go on forever, but my roommates think I'm anti-social

426 mi

i really have nothing to say. except, i sometimes drive myself crazy, and sometimes...i let you drive me crazy.

gh day

so today is ground hog day. sweet. so dear old Punxsutawney Phil saw his shadow today. figures. six more weeks of winter.

i feel like every Feb. 2 is always sunny for some weird reason, because every other day is dark and dreary. so the thing is obviously going to see his shadow.

the deal is he his shadow, gets scared and goes back into is little hole and no spring for six extra weeks. the way i see it though is that if he sees his shadow, it must mean its sunny, therefore it should mean spring is coming early.

and how does he know to make an appearance today? what does it say about the forcast if he flakes and forgets to show up?

when i was younger i took this day so seriously. i was like wow this little guy has a lot of weight on his shoulders. and id wait all morning to find out. it was so intense. i was totally duped.

saturday had the strangest series of events.

so after being the weirdest girls all day saturday, it was finally time for Kath and I to come back and reboot for a new night. so to get home we had to take the T. sounds harmless. Well, Friday night before going out, we thought we were soo smart for packing pajamas, only we weren't that smart because we didn't bring shoes to wear with our pajamas. so getting home the next day, kath was just like i'll but my pants back on and wear my heels home, me on the other hand didn't wear pants out and my tights were completely shredded so i had no choice but to wear sweatpants and high heel boots on the T home. absolutely ridiculous. if i only could have read people's minds, because i was getting some looks. we were so cracked out.

so we finally showered, changed and got ready to go out again. we did a little finagling before leaving and got our own fix. called and cab and were on our way.

so i thought id start some harmless small talk with the cab driver which lead to him telling us about he is on match.com and all the women he met so far. first of all this guy was like 38, mexican and from texas. so he tells us about peggy, who is from florida and when he saw her pic, she was about 335 pounds, she was deleted. then he tells us he found a sixteen year old that sent a naked pic of herself with belts all around her body. i asked if he deleted her because its illegal but he said he liked her pic too much. ok. so that was that we scooted out as fast as we could. and he promised he'd be waiting to pick us up later. i'm wishing now he didn't know where i lived.

so we get to the bar and all the lights were on and it was the most random mix of people. we met up with kath's boyfriend and his friends. one of them had a limo for a reason i still do not know so we all jumped in there to drive around. worst idea. i had to pee so bad i truly thought i might die. i couldn't even talk, i couldn't even think. it sucked. finally we stopped in a parking lot to pee. of alllll the places in this little city of mine the driver thinks its okay to let us pee in a parking lot. ughh whatever. then we finally get to our destination. another dive.

they had every flavor Smirnoff vodka. it was unusual.

so honestly, to my best friend kath... CAATTHHHH. i am so happy for you. even if your boyfriend is weird. haha and thinks I'm a porn star. because you are happy, i am happy. i think that he is entertaining and moreover, i feel he would never do anything to hurt you.

you two are maniacs and I'm sorry he opened up his world of porn to me. haha

after the bar we got back into the limo because getting a cab at that time is absolutely hopeless. we went to one of the boy's places in Southie. the boy that everytime i looked towards him he was staring at me. no big deal. anyway i decided to give myself a tour and peaked into a bedroom with the door closed. always a bad idea. i quickly closed it in case someone was actually in there sleeping and/or getting some. later in the night i opened my mouth about something in the apartment and asked who's it was. apparently this boy's roommate had just killed himself in his bedroom (the room i peaked in) just last wednesday. so pretty faded from the night, kath and i immediately start asking a million questions.

*i don't know how i feel about the suicide situation. it creeps me out to think someone could truly decide on such a final act. on one hand, i feel that some people really are so deeply unhappy and troubled that if they wish to take their own life, no one can stop them. they will eventually do it. buttt, i think it also is a very selfish act. and i know the person doesn't know how the loss will affect those around them, but it makes people feel naked and confused. in this situation the kid told me he thinks the kid has only been like upset for the past two weeks or so, i do not believe someone decides suicide is for them in only two weeks. also now this boy has to live in the apartment with all those memories and feelings. he is now probably going to look for a new place. but he was just so confused about his emotions because he was sad, but he was so mad that his friend did this to them, left to find him in his room. it really brings a surge of emotions and you do not know how to feel about anything.

so after that whole situation, we decided it was time to go home. we arrived on my front porch to find three boys at the door telling me that i didn't live here. they told us we were too fucked up and didn't realize we were at the wrong house. i don't even think i was being a bitch, i think i went along with it. finally after five minutes i didn't think it was funny anymore and i just took my key, opened the door and went upstairs.

we got in at almost 4 and watched Best Week Ever. the fucking 18+ kids wedding special show was featured on it. i was beyond thrilled. i almost fell off the couch laughing.

Kath had to wake up at 8:30 for work this am, better than 6:30 i guess. i wasn't sure for awhile there if she was going to make it, but calling out is for losers who can't hold their own. she made it after getting lost on the way to the highway and ending up in cambridge. oops haha. move here and you wont have to leave anymore.

what a whirlwind of a weekend.

weirdest girls

so here's a glimpse at the weird things we're up to when we aren't part of the world for days..

group shoooot. kath is so excited to be alive.


MY VALENTINE:
mamaaaa.

while i crashed on the couch....like an ANGEL

whit and kath found something out:

CREEPS.

we decided to leave the house after splitting an egg sandwich four ways. so i went out dressed in turquoise sweat pants, and light blue rain boots. it was probably the windiest day in Boston. it sucked. Meaghan and I decided to go to City Sports, while Whita and Kath went to Filene's Basement. You guys go to City Sports, we'll go to Filenes. OK we'll go to Filene's while you guys are at City Sports. We didn't even have any luck. Whats it take to get a good water bottle these days? So we went home and melted into our respective couch cushions. ONE CUSH EACH.

dinosaur colors<3

we watched tv all day. degrassi is like the best show for the thoughtless mind. the idiot high school girl smoked a joint before her college fair then had to meet with someone from the college she wanted to go to. she completely freaked and blurted out I AM SO HIGH. i could have smacked her. come on girl get a grip. freak out in the bathroom, even have an anxiety attack if you wish, then get your ass out there and act natural. rule number one. then her stupid friend was bitching at her boyfriend the whole episode, poor kid, and at the end she breaks down and yells at her boyfriend "you decided to wear the jumbo condom and it slipped off and now I'm pregnant" I'm gonna go out on a limb there and say that's a double whammy for that poor 16 year old fool. he has a small wiener andd knocked his girl up, then he crashed his car. wow high school really does have a lot of drama. i tried to sleep the rest of the afternoon because whit wouldn't stop talking and i didn't want to respond and they decided to watch the repeat of the fucked up family with 18 kids and the no kissing til the wedding bullshit show again. more fucked up the second time around.

so then we got to talking about tails, and how sweet life would be if humans had them. hahaha. so awesome.

kath had to work hungover today, so it was just whita and i. you were missed friend.

just hanging out. weirdos

mean green nail polish RULES!

danny, ricky, joey, bobby...

friday afternoon kath came to visit (we get her every other weekend). so we decide to go to saint with whit to meet up with kris and some of her friends.

my outfit rocked. bloused, obv.

and once we are there we promised each other we wont dance. no exceptions.

within two minutes of being there, i whisper to kath that I'm probably gonna leave early.within ten minutes of being there we hit the dance floor, under the direction of whita of course.

the rest of the night was a blur. the crowd was not my kinda of crowd, but regardless we had a lot of fun. this really nice boy (wise maybe? ;) ) bought me a shot which we both absolutely did not need, nonetheless it was the thought that counts.

before leaving we met Trinidad and Tobago, also very nice. hahaha i don't even know what to say to them except whit really thought it was a good idea to tell them to come over. they didn't. phhew.

i thought these people completely going at it in the corner were cute. man its amazing the love you can find at bars these days.

peace be with you.

i lose everything

so a few weeks ago i lost my whole wallet. i stopped at petco in nh when i was home, then came back to my apartment and got ready to go out and right before i walked out the door i realized i had left my wallet in the carriage at petco. i freaked out for a little and then just went out with my phone and lip gloss. the next day some man called and told me he had found and it my dad went and picked it up for me. GOD BLESS HIM. i'm an idiot.

then this past week i go to the market after the gym and decide it will be easiest if i just put my debit card into my jacket pocket so i don't have to carry anything around the store. as I'm checking out in line, i realize my card is no longer with me. i act cool and tell the cashier i must have dropped it then i run around the store like a freak looking for it. eventually i go to customer service and they had it. sweet. saved again.

so last night I'm at the bar, and i go to close my tab. so i bartender is like ok sure. then hes like oh hold on its gonna be a minute. so I'm standing there for a few minutes and he turns around and hes like OMG IT WAS ON THE GROUND! I'm like wha?? hes like "i thought i lost your card but it was on the ground, i was freaking out" i was like oh haha good thing ya found it!

i swear that little card has legs and likes to run away from me every chance it gets. luckily there is such thing as good karma.