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going to the gym and forgetting my ipod is so miserable. as if my ADD isn't bad enough, i have no music to at least keep me half sane. i just bounce around thinking about how much i do not want to be there. anddd for some reason, not having headphones in your ears apparently gives people the crazy idea that you are approachable. no. i do not want to talk to you. especially when im sweating and bored. im sure no small talk you have up your sleeve will interest me.

i hate not being alone, but i hate being alone. i'm not sure which one i hate more yet.

so last night we watched some show on tlc about that family that has 18 kids. no twins. just that blows my mind. what a life that must be. the mom is always knocked up. so anyway, this episode was about the oldest who is getting married. hes gotta be in his early 20s or so. so aside from how really weird the family is, this boy and his fiancee have never kissed. at first we thought maybe they just held off like the day of the wedding or something, but when we actually tuned in we learned they have never kissed. ever. imagine that. i guess waiting to have sex is one thing. but even kissing? what if the kid completely eats your face? they were worried they would miss eachother's lips at the wedding, i'm sure weddings are stressful enough, worrying about how your husband kisses shouldnt be on the list. anyway, when i was at lunch today my manager was like oh there is this weird show about a fam with 18 kids....i almost fell outta my chair. i was like OMG I WATCHED IT!! then i proceded to tell everyone at the table how completely deranged they were. different strokes for different folks i guess.

so its little sappy's birthday! happy birthday dear! im happy we've been on this emotional rollercoaster for 6 years! cant wait to enjoy six more =)

my cousin is telepathic today. i guess its just like you wake up some days and are, others you just arent. her boyfriend just surprised her from providence. true love does exist. i just threw up in my mouth.

i can't wait to do nothing.