so my ADD has been off the charts lately. i had a pathways class yesterday for work and i couldn't even pretend to concentrate. it was torture.

katie, rob, and i went out for sushi last night too. it was delicious. we knew what we wanted before we even got there. I've also made the decision to quit smoking. i feel like it gives me anxiety when i don't do it for awhile and i hate that. also the past two times i have I've completely regretted it, both for the same reason. so we'll see.

i told sb not to talk to me anymore, which i meant and didn't mean at the same time. i really haven't thought about him lately, and would continue to not think about him if he would just leave me alone. i feel like he has this alarm that goes off whenever I'm happy without him that he needs to contact me. he is so nice and i think he means well...but don't tell me you and your girlfriend of almost two years are breaking up soon and how she thinks its so much more serious than it is and that the sooner you guys break up the sooner we can get back together, did i mention i cant wait to marry you? like get a fucking grip. i think you are amazing, and i think that when we were together things were good, but like i cant keep being strung along. and I'm sick of being the girl that likes the boys with girlfriends. why do i always find myself in these situations? I'm not even the boyfriend stealing type, so don't worry ladies. i wont steal your boyfriends, I'll just stay in love with him forever until finally i realize how retarded I'm being. so that's that.

i had a half day of work today which was nice. the morning went by so fast. i followed the two wound care specialists today. they are two RNs in their mid-forties maybe, and they were nuts. when i first got their they were dancing around in their office to taylor swift. and one was like you know taylor swift and you didn't even know chris brown?! anyway all day as we roamed around the whole hospital looking at huge wounds and stomas they asked me about a million questions about my life. they made me show them my facebook, then asked if it would be weird if they had it. so then of coursed they asked everyone;s favorite question...so why don't you have a boyfriend?! you're so cute, and nice... what do people expect you to say to that? "oh no one really sees me in that way i guess" i told them i was too picky, which is the truth i guess. i should have said I'm emotionally unavailable. whatever.

so then i visited derek. which was the same as usual. i laid on the couch and watching tv the whole time. then i went to the dentist to get a cleaning. NO CAVITIES! yayyy. the hygienist actually said, and i quote "wow katelyn your teeth are perfect" thank you very much.

90 minute massage tonight? yes please!